Why did you click this link? Are you worried, lonely and afraid? Are you feeling as if your birth was a mistake? Are you even trying or thinking about choosing suicide? If so, you are in the right place. I don't want to waste any more time but tell the truth.
when we face difficult circumstances due to our own fault or of other people, whether influenced by a movie or a famous personality, in either movies or real life, we think about Suicide.
So, you want to end your life? You regard yourself a know-nothing person and you think nobody loves you, right?
If that is the case, answer me this question:
1.Does anybody else except you yourself care for you?
2.Do you have a friend who is like your Bestie!? (Best friend)
3.Do you have a guardian?
4.Are you never bullied?
5.Have you ever succeeded in life?
6.Have you always done good and felt they never came back?
7.Have you ever thought you are good for nothing?
8.Do you think that your death will affect nobody?
9.Have you ever done a good deed in life?
10.What are your thoughts about the person you are?
If you answered "YES" to number 1, 3, 7 and 8 then you are definitely misguided. However if you answered negatively to these four questions I assume you are deeply hurt because I know how it feels. I have gone through the situation myself. Sometimes, I would get so much bullied by my friends, they would always underestimate me. I felt as if I was good for nothing. At one point of time I was so depressed, you never knew that a 12 year old would want to commit suicide. But I wanted to try it, I just wanted to die. Who would even care, right?
But no, my story doesn't end, like somebody found me dead hanging from a ceiling fan or foam in my mouth because I am still here telling my story to you. I just wanted to die, like now you want to. As I told you, I was 12 years old at that time. I was a genuine student, a great story writer and the best daughter. But I got way more bullied than you think. I have moments in which i was surrounded by my friends when the teachers would never come to class, and they would sing insulting songs about me. I have moments when my books were hidden, my copies were turn and rolled. And then i wanted to end my life.
So, what changed me then? It was nobody else who changed the scenario but me myself. Because right before I decided to end my life, I remembered the best incidents of my life. Suddenly a smile came to my face that was soaked with tears. I am not telling that your situation might be very similar to me because I know it isn't. But both of us have or had the urge to die. That's common between us. You know what happened after that? My cousin brother entered my room. It was a weekend, a time he always came to my home in the previous day. Though we share so many feelings together, he didn't notice my tears, the room was somehow dark due to loadshedding too. He sat by my bed and told me about his problem, which I literally don't remember right now! I gave him a solution, he smiled at this. A spark lit the tubelights and the next moment they turned on! The loadshedding was over! He saw my face and showed a lot of concern.When I asked him if he was serious. At my question,he laughed aloud and then he told me," Nah, I don't care for you at all.Who else would want to live with a red faced bookworm like you?" At this both of us started to laugh aloud. He said that so sarcastically!
Now, you don't think any cousin would pop inside your house right now, do you? Maybe this might happen to one person in hundred people. Anyways, don't think that way, because the same situation came once again in front of me. I was climbing on the pillar of my roof ready to jump any moment.My dog started barking at me real bad. she started whimpering in fear and agony to see me like that. But she compelled me to climb down.
Another moment nobody was around, not even my dog! I was supposed to be writing with my hand. But there was a knife in my hand instead. I definitely would die this time, right? But nah, I didn't who stopped me this time then?
It was me myself. I stopped me who was misguided and totally in a grave condition. I brought myself out of that situation. As they say, I placed my hand over my heart. Place your hand over your heart. Felt that? That's called purpose. You are alive for a reason.
Don't forget that!
To anyone who just tried holding their suicidal thoughts, I am glad you are still here.Keep holding on.
Here is something dedicated to the one who is reading this:
>LOVE WHAT YOU DO
>DO WHAT YOU LOVE
THERE'S JUST ONE LIFE TO LIVE
Live Well | Laugh Often| Love Always
LIFE IS A JOURNEY, ENJOY IT!
Dance Like NO One Is Watching
Love Like You Have Never Been Hurt
Sing Like No One is Listening
STAY HAPPY AND BE POSITIVE
Wanted to keep you up to date about the results. I got the consolation prize for story writing competition once again. This is not failure to any extent as it seems. But it is failure for me as my goal was the top rank, after all. But anyways, I was not participating for the rsnk. I want people to compete in a healthy way. Here's what I want to convey to most of them:
CREATIVITY IS TO LET YOURSELF MAKE MISTAKES. ART IS TO KNOW WHICH ONES TO KEEP.
So, never lose hope if anyone supresses you, if you face faiures or you are upset. People who commit suicide are coward. I am not bullying or discriminating anyone by this statement. I am just stating the truth. Those people had no courage left with them to even face themselves, so they choose the most easy option- to end their life.
If you are brave and want to face the consequences, then suicide will be the option that will never be suggested in your mind.
Believe In Yourself
You matter.
YOU HAVE THE POWER TO SAY "THIS IS NOW MY STORY ENDS."
And yeah, talk it out with somebody.They can't reach you if they don't know you need them.
Sometimes, It's okay to cry, It's okay to be upset.
Your hand isn't paper, don't cut it.
Your face isn't a mask, don't hide it.
Your size isn't a book, don't judge it.
Your life isn't a film, don't end it.
YOU THINK YOU WANT TO DIE BUT IN REALITY YOU JUST WANT TO BE SAVED.
How did you get from that little 5 year old, always HAPPY and always LAUGHING...to..................this?
Let me reveal one last thing now. This was supposed to be a suicide note to be honest.So, it is said that write, even if it is a suicide note.
Don't worry I am still Here. God bless you.Have a nice day!
#See You Bloggers
#Take Care!
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